if you pick at a scab, it'll just bleed again.

this is picking me apart inside. so. without further delay, here are my messages.

1: i wish i could tell you. but i cant, cause it won't help to tell anyone anything.

2: okay, so i know i've hurt you. and im sorry. but that doesn't mean i'll change. cause you know why i act this way. if you want me to change my reaction to you, then you should change your actions. i'm sorry, but i can only try to be your friend. and that is hard enough as it is.

3: stop trying to be the middleman. cause you're not. i know you're doing the communication, but please. what do you want me to do? and what do you have to do with this anyway?

4: gah, imy.

5: i'm sorry, but i can only be your friend.

i hope they never find this.

-aveline.