dude, this sucks.

today i realized some things:

• summer is coming so fast and its going to be amazing
• i've changed. a lot. and i dont think this path is headed to where i wanna go.

SUMMMERRRRR. :D
so my parents said no to going to Paris in Oct.2010 but im perfectly fine with that. and im awaiting confirmation to see if i can apply to be a counsellor in training at Bird River Bible Camp. My parents want to find out a bit more about the place before they agree to send me there for three weeks. If I can't do that, I plan to take a full summer of dance classes every tuesday night. it sounds ridiculous, but im serious about it. if they say yes to bird river bible camp, i'll do the second half of summer for dance classes. yes its hiphop. im thinking of filling in the spaces of my schedule with a summer job or volunteering opportunities.. hmm... OH AND I GET TO PLAY SIMS 3 AND PLAY GUITAR THIS SUMMER. whoooot.

and my parents have CANCELLED the Alberta trip. :( oh well. we might go camping instead. :D yaaaaay.

CHANGE :(
the one thing i dont like about change is that you cant see where its headed or if itll ever go back. and i dont like adjusting. lately, i think i lost control of myself. its like im just watching everything happen... not coool. i have to get back to the way i was. or find a way around my issue. i see my own flaws. i have to fix them. i want to fix them ASAP. cause i dont like the new me.


EDUCATION. :(
and today was my geography exam.. much easier than i expected it to be. except i winged like a full page of multiple choice questions about north-american waterways. :S anyway. it was so hot today, i almost got a nosebleed during the exam. idk if thats a good thing or a bad thing because it means the weather was hot and really nice, but i could have gotten a nosebleed during my exam, which would have deducted time from the two hours i had to write the exam. that would have sucked. tomorrow is my final exam, its for french class. i think i'll be okay. i hope. :|
i've never had much trouble in french, so i think ill be good enough.

MAN i have to stop settling for "good enough" and start trying for "best" cause its really bringing me down.

so. im excited. :D and i think ill continue blogging with no specific regular pattern of when ill blog. so itll be a surprise everytime. (:

watch out for more blogs. ;)

-aveline.