define best friend.

best friend. noun.
wiktionary definition: an especially close and trusted friend

i thought that's what we were. and still are. but is it already past tense? we were best friends.

so i thought you trusted me. but i guess not. i mean, i know it's probably wrong to expect you to tell me EVERY SINGLE detail of your life, but i thought we were close. i thought you were comfortable telling me what's on your mind. but i guess i was wrong. when i tell you stuff, its usually the stuff that matters to me. yenno, DEEP stuff. Dude, i freakin' pour out my soul. and you don't even tell me anything anymore. its just the skin-deep stuff. you don't even tell me what's bothering you. its always just 'oh no don't worry about me, i'm okay.' or you tell me things so vaguely and i dont know what to say to help you cause youre usually just saying 'i have a problem but i wont tell you about it'. sometimes i feel like i don't even know you anymore.

I know its wrong to give and expect anything in return, but it hurts. it hurts, feeling like i've totally lost you. it hurts feeling like i've lost sight of your face in the crowd, i can't even fricken recognize you. I used to be able to pick your face out right away, but now its like you're just another stranger ill never see again in my life.

Before, it was fine, cause you hid things to prevent people from worrying. Now, it seems like you're hiding it only from me, but telling all the rest of the world. its like, all over facebook. i don't even know what youre going through but i hope you're okay. i think i might give up on trying to make this work again. it just won't be the same. trust me. oh wait. you don't. hah, what a cruel. sick. joke.

have a nice life, best friend. don't even know what to call you.

PS. last time, when you asked if my vent post was about you, i said no. sorry, i lied.